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ON A JOURNEY TO BEING
Like everyone who has reached middle age, I have had many diverse experiences that have led me to the discovery of my "self". What happened is not as relevant as what I have done with the outcomes and opportunities. In 1997 I began unraveling the story of my childhood and found that much of it was still dominating my life. I adopted a new perspective and turned face forward into my future. During this time, I made many life altering decisions, including some that would have frightened me to death had I not had the deepest conviction that I was being divinely guided. It was this profound spiritual connection that gave me the courage to recreate myself and to step into a conscious way of living. It hasn't been a joy ride but it has been one I wouldn't trade for anything. I am now more in control of my life than ever before because I am paying attention to what I say and do and especially, most emphatically, I cannot stress enough - to how I am feeling. Without hesitation I stand firmly committed to exploring my feelings and tracing the links between my consciousness and my human attitudes and behaviours. It is the most powerful tool I have ever used to build a happy, resourceful and love enriched life. It has also played a significant role (and still does) in healing physical conditions in my body. My choice to live in a semi-remote area and offer quiet space to fellow seekers has been highly rewarding. No one crosses my doorstep without giving me a gift from their spirit and in return I share my love and acceptance. To be in this place now is a result of having lived a life filled with the anxieties and distorted perceptions that instill fear, anger, distrust, sadness, insecurity, shame and a myriad of other emotions. To have come this far is a greater accomplishment than any academic certification or financial gain. This is success. The story doesn't end here and never will. While I am too aware to let anything slip past me, I am also very much human. I have journeyed into the past too many times to not have a well worn path that pulls like the gravitational force of the earth. In spite of my most dedicated efforts, I too still find that sometimes I can't seem to help but run for cover in old self destructive behaviours when a crisis occurs. The joy of awareness is that if I do slide out of the present moment, I am never gone long. Being here and now is too satisfying, too delicious, too empowering, too beautiful. This is my story and it's not over yet. I love my life and all that comes with it. The parts that are painful and those that enrich my soul. I love my life. Daryl (Clarke) Wood
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